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A couple of days after this, during which he had failed to profit by so free a permission, he had been for a quarter of an hour walking with his charge in silence when the boy became sociable again with the remark: "I'll tell you how I know it; I know it through Zenobie.""Zenobie? Who in the world is SHE?"

"A nurse I used to have - ever so many years ago.A charming woman.I liked her awfully, and she liked me.""There's no accounting for tastes.What is it you know through her?""Why what their idea is.She went away because they didn't fork out.She did like me awfully, and she stayed two years.She told me all about it - that at last she could never get her wages.As soon as they saw how much she liked me they stopped giving her anything.They thought she'd stay for nothing - just BECAUSE, don't you know?" And Morgan had a queer little conscious lucid look."She did stay ever so long - as long an she could.She was only a poor girl.She used to send money to her mother.At last she couldn't afford it any longer, and went away in a fearful rage one night - I mean of course in a rage against THEM.She cried over me tremendously, she hugged me nearly to death.She told me all about it," the boy repeated."She told me it was their idea.

So I guessed, ever so long ago, that they have had the same idea with you.""Zenobie was very sharp," said Pemberton."And she made you so.""Oh that wasn't Zenobie; that was nature.And experience!" Morgan laughed.

"Well, Zenobie was a part of your experience.""Certainly I was a part of hers, poor dear!" the boy wisely sighed.

"And I'm part of yours."

"A very important part.But I don't see how you know that I've been treated like Zenobie.""Do you take me for the biggest dunce you've known?" Morgan asked.

"Haven't I been conscious of what we've been through together?""What we've been through?"

"Our privations - our dark days."

"Oh our days have been bright enough."

Morgan went on in silence for a moment.Then he said: "My dear chap, you're a hero!""Well, you're another!" Pemberton retorted.

"No I'm not, but I ain't a baby.I won't stand it any longer.You must get some occupation that pays.I'm ashamed, I'm ashamed!"quavered the boy with a ring of passion, like some high silver note from a small cathedral cloister, that deeply touched his friend.

"We ought to go off and live somewhere together," the young man said.

"I'll go like a shot if you'll take me."

"I'd get some work that would keep us both afloat," Pemberton continued.

"So would I.Why shouldn't I work? I ain't such a beastly little muff as that comes to.""The difficulty is that your parents wouldn't hear of it.They'd never part with you; they worship the ground you tread on.Don't you see the proof of it?" Pemberton developed."They don't dislike me; they wish me no harm; they're very amiable people; but they're perfectly ready to expose me to any awkwardness in life for your sake."The silence in which Morgan received his fond sophistry struck Pemberton somehow as expressive.After a moment the child repeated: "You are a hero!" Then he added: "They leave me with you altogether.You've all the responsibility.They put me off on you from morning till night.Why then should they object to my taking up with you completely? I'd help you.""They're not particularly keen about my being helped, and they delight in thinking of you as THEIRS.They're tremendously proud of you.""I'm not proud of THEM.But you know that," Morgan returned.

"Except for the little matter we speak of they're charming people,"said Pemberton, not taking up the point made for his intelligence, but wondering greatly at the boy's own, and especially at this fresh reminder of something he had been conscious of from the first - the strangest thing in his friend's large little composition, a temper, a sensibility, even a private ideal, which made him as privately disown the stuff his people were made of.Morgan had in secret a small loftiness which made him acute about betrayed meanness; as well as a critical sense for the manners immediately surrounding him that was quite without precedent in a juvenile nature, especially when one noted that it had not made this nature "old-fashioned," as the word is of children - quaint or wizened or offensive.It was as if he had been a little gentleman and had paid the penalty by discovering that he was the only such person in his family.This comparison didn't make him vain, but it could make him melancholy and a trifle austere.While Pemberton guessed at these dim young things, shadows of shadows, he was partly drawn on and partly checked, as for a scruple, by the charm of attempting to sound the little cool shallows that were so quickly growing deeper.When he tried to figure to himself the morning twilight of childhood, so as to deal with it safely, he saw it was never fixed, never arrested, that ignorance, at the instant he touched it, was already flushing faintly into knowledge, that there was nothing that at a given moment you could say an intelligent child didn't know.It seemed to him that he himself knew too much to imagine Morgan's simplicity and too little to disembroil his tangle.

The boy paid no heed to his last remark; he only went on: "I'd have spoken to them about their idea, as I call it, long ago, if Ihadn't been sure what they'd say."

"And what would they say?"